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Ex-Pseudo called me last night. I was at my "Cheers" playing Buck Hunter after work. The phone rang and everything else ceased to matter. My heart stopped, I felt my breath catch in my throat.
I haven't spoken with him in months, I haven't seen him in over a year and yet the same old feelings came crashing down around me. Last time he called in October, I didn't answer the phone - this time I did.
As soon as I saw it was him calling I knew it was over for me. I didn't think about the great guy I've been on two dates with recently and who sends me sweet random texts; I didn't think about what was going to happen when I saw Pseudo; I didn't think logically or take the time to think about the ramifications of what may or may not happen. I answered and I knew I would see him.
"B saved you some pizza, come to B's house," as if we had spoken an hour ago. I laughed and told him I wasn't sure, knowing full well I'd be over there shortly.
When I got there he said: "I guess you know me and T-Bone broke up?" to which I replied (honestly) "umm...no actually I didn't".
I couldn't believe I was there. I berated myself but yet felt happy. I can't begin to explain, I don't even understand it myself.
I woke up in his arms
And now I'm lost again
Ex-Pseudo called me last night. I was at my "Cheers" playing Buck Hunter after work. The phone rang and everything else ceased to matter. My heart stopped, I felt my breath catch in my throat.
I haven't spoken with him in months, I haven't seen him in over a year and yet the same old feelings came crashing down around me. Last time he called in October, I didn't answer the phone - this time I did.
As soon as I saw it was him calling I knew it was over for me. I didn't think about the great guy I've been on two dates with recently and who sends me sweet random texts; I didn't think about what was going to happen when I saw Pseudo; I didn't think logically or take the time to think about the ramifications of what may or may not happen. I answered and I knew I would see him.
"B saved you some pizza, come to B's house," as if we had spoken an hour ago. I laughed and told him I wasn't sure, knowing full well I'd be over there shortly.
When I got there he said: "I guess you know me and T-Bone broke up?" to which I replied (honestly) "umm...no actually I didn't".
I couldn't believe I was there. I berated myself but yet felt happy. I can't begin to explain, I don't even understand it myself.
I woke up in his arms
And now I'm lost again
9 comments:
feeling like i'm going to end up in that same position myself. my ex and i can't seem to get away from each other for more than a few months. he drives me crazy in a good way and a bad way haha. good luck :)
This is sweet, I think there are always special men in girl"s lives they cant say no too :)
Girllll.... we ALL go through this. Gah, it sucks!
did you guys, "DO it"?
You're not alone. My ex texted me last night at 10:45 to see if I wanted to grab a drink on his way home from band practice. I was in bed, but awake, and I GOT OUT OF BED to hang out with him for an hour. And we're just friends these days.
But I don't regret it.
So what now???
Totally doing the same thing! Although I sometimes switch from calling him pseudo to "summer boyfriend". I have no idea why we can't stay away from each other... but beautiful post. :)
WOW.
We all have that weak point. Right now, I think I've met the person that in the future might turn things out of my comfort zone VERY often. When I'm probably with other men.
I have been here, exactly. Well written.
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